Posts Tagged ‘Surviving Cancer’

#4 More Oxygen

Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge.  For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.

Oxygen Sessions for Eric

Eric did an oxygen session last night and is back in the Hyperbaric Chamber this morning.  See attached photo.One of the things that can be confusing and a bit heart wrenching to anyone taking care of someone with a serious illness is that there can be constant ups and downs.  “He’s better, he’s worse.  There is hope, it’s over. This is working, it’s not working.  Things are gonna be OK, well who knows….”  So please keep that in mind as you read. I had said I was looking into hospice, and we did that, but we are not ready for that.  We needed the information, and now we have it. So Eric remains in “Palliative Care” which means that both comfort and life-enhancing measures are in motion.  Please continue to see him alive and well.  That is his request. Here’s to Oxygen! love, Terri

Lots of Time in the Chamber!

Eric is spending quite a bit of time in the Oxygen Chamber — hour and a half sessions.  The woman who is lending it to us says there is something magical about the 20 hour mark — improvements begin to show up.  But we are finding improvements for him already, including slightly increased stamina, and are looking forward to more positive shifts.  We’ll keep you posted. I went into the chamber myself once and so did Eric’s sister Corrinne.  Corrinne thoroughly enjoyed her time.  I felt euphoric for hours afterwards, and felt like any troubles I might have had when I went into the chamber disappeared completely.  It made me wonder about treating things like depression, sadness, etc. with oxygen.  I felt positively invincible when I came out.  I felt like myself, I thought, “Oh, yes, I remember exactly who I am.”  It was pretty significant for me.  Jim Reed was at our house when I emerged from the chamber and he can tell you it’s true! Keep sending those positive thoughts for Eric and his well-being.  Thank you! Terri
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#3 Let’s Try Everything

Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge.  For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.

A friend of ours from Georgia has offered to break down her 9 foot Oxygen chamber, bring it here, and set it up in our home for a week while her business is closed over the Holidays.  We should have it sometime today.  Apparently, in other countries, using this oxygen therapy for cancer treatment is common. We are looking forward to seeing if it helps Eric.  His pain levels are increasing, and time is of the essence. Thank you for all your wonderful prayers. love, Terri

John of God

Eric did have a remote session with John of God on Christmas morning. Some herbs were prescribed for him.  Everyone gets the same herb (I forget what it’s called) but the herbs are imprinted or infused with whatever John of God is giving you energetically. A woman hand carried Eric’s herbs to the US from central Brazil (she was coming back anyway) and she is sending them overnight once she arrives in the US, which is supposed to be today and the herbs should arrive here hopefully on Monday. When you have a remote session with John of God, you don’t hear anything verbal, you’re not on the phone or Skype, you just get a message from the person who is personally in charge of presenting your photo to John of God.  The message tells you whether you got herbs to take, or if remote surgery is scheduled in the future, or if he requests that you come to Brazil for treatment.  We’re new at this, but that’s what we understand. love, Terri

He’s Awake

Eric just woke up this morning.  I asked him how he is doing and he mentioned how tired he is and keeps falling asleep.  Our big white cat is contentedly curled up with him. I asked him what he’d like to tell you all and he said, “Sing. Tell them to make music.” So there you go!  Sing around your house today.  Sing in the car.  Sing out! love, Terri Continue Reading

#2 A Note About Caregiving From The Caregiver

Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two or three about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge.  For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.

God Morning! I know that I just typed a typo and I’m leaving it just like that because it’s perfect. It is 10:30 and I’m the only one awake.  The house is so quiet.  I took advantage of the quiet and did some blessed yoga. Since Eric isn’t up yet, and I really don’t know what to say about him, I wanted to write a short note from the caregiver — that would be me…. :–) about care giving. It is clear to me — extra clear these days — how important to be easy about things with the person you’re taking care of, and letting everything flow the way it’s flowing.  I’ve always known that, but now I know it in my bones. So I got up to have some time to myself. I really love the silence and calm while I look outside at the beauty of the day and do my best to stay in the present.  This helps me not focus on the day ahead or what should be done to prepare for the day, or clean up the kitchen or plan a meal or whatever.  The day will get busy soon enough.  I don’t have to start on it in the quiet of the morning. While I did yoga I listened to this on YouTube:  http://youtu.be/Y6WElxbbOGw.  And while philosophies among humans differ tremendously, and who knows if the talk would be interesting or helpful to you, this 14 minute talk helped me center myself for the day.  And that’s what’s important.  It helped me, so I can help Eric all day.  And that’s what matters — whatever helps me be more myself, more available, more calm, more loving.  On the farm where I grew up, I used to get up in the morning and go be with the animals.   Later in my life, I lived by the ocean for many years, and I would go for a walk and listen to the waves and feel the sand between my toes.  So many things work.  We just have to give ourselves permission to take the time to do them. My mantra today:  The Universe is always helping me.  Things are always turning out well for me. Love to all of you.  I will let you know how Eric is when he is up and around. Terri Crosby Continue Reading

#1 The First Report and Thinking About Hospice

Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge.  For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.

12-26-13 for Eric Russ

It’s evening, and Eric is resting comfortably at home.  He says he feels better, but has no stamina to speak of.  He is mostly in bed.  He is on pain medication and something for digestive comfort as well.  He believes he is getting better and, frankly, that is a mighty fine place to be with oneself. I have asked for a hospice evaluation for tomorrow afternoon, so a nurse is coming to talk with us. Through this process life has gotten both simple and complicated.  Simple in terms of knowing what’s important.  And complicated because there are many needs to be met for Eric.  I keep putting one foot in front of the other, and I notice that my heart is opening, my understanding is deepening, and I see life in sweeter ways every day. Eric is being gentle, open and very loving.  He appreciates all your warm thoughts and your prayers.  It means  a lot to him and he comments about that often. love, Terri Continue Reading

My Brother’s Cancer Journey

iowaspring1Iowa is beautiful, even in late winter, early spring. Granted, it’s cold, and the gray days so far are quite a contrast to my usual daily dose of bright California sun. From having grown up here, I know the Iowa gray can go on all too long this time of year when everyone is ready for spring.

I’m here with my youngest brother, who is 49 years old, and has cancer according to the medical people. It has been tough going on many levels.  He is struggling to keep weight on, struggling to breathe, struggling to keep a positive attitude, struggling to accept his situation, struggling to walk, struggling to accept so much assistance, struggling to sleep, and most of all, to live.

His having cancer changed the landscape of our family quite suddenly.  There we all were, going about our days and nights as if all we had to do was “the usual” and then we found out he was not well.  We were having “lah-de-dah” conversations about the weather and “what did you do today?” which took a sharp and unexpected turn into conversations about how to live life fully, how to help someone else do the same, and what really matters in a day.iowalandscape

The mood — the frame of mind among family members on any given day here at the hospital — varies. Wondering if he will live at all is at the top of the list some days.  On other days, all things considered, he looks pretty good.  If you’re reading this, there is a good chance you know the “ebb and flow” I’m talking about.

I have a renewed appreciation for the nurses and doctors who do this service for my brother and for others every day in the oncology wing.  Being here with him and his process is my lesson in letting go.   How he is dealing with the cancer, his treatment choices – all of it is different than I would choose. That is what I think, but I don’t know, because I don’t have cancer and I have never walked in his shoes.

So here I am, hooking up his feeding tubes, learning how to disinfect the ports that carry the “nutrition” into his body, doing driving errands, transporting his children, or doing household chores.  My brother’s wife is carrying on the family business so they have an income. The tasks I’m doing seem very small, and they are, but every little bit helps.

Now he is home and having chemotherapy on a weekly basis.  He is on the least-invasive, most tolerable drug possible, because he has lost so much weight and getting him stronger is the number one goal now. Finding food he can face eating is quite a challenge.  He’s hungry, but nothing seems to sound delicious.  Truly good food, fully nutritious food, natural food — all of this seems to be a big turn off. How curious, since it seems that is what could possibly help him recover.  Again, I don’t know.  I have no idea.

Maybe the information I have about cancer can be helpful to someone else.  I will post more soon. In the meantime, listen to your heart.  Follow your heart. Imagine yourself looking back on your life.  What will you be glad you did?  Get to know your loved ones.  Have honest conversations.

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She’s Got Love Fingers

Christie Lenee can play a guitar. She’s the 2017 International Finger Style Guitar Champion of the Year. In September of last year in London, she also won Acoustic Guitarist of the Year.

But lucky for us, she’s not just a champion guitar player. Christie Lenee is also quite the composer.

A friend of hers, Michael Pukac, requested that she write a song, one he described as “the story of love.” She scribbled notes and went to work.

Through Christie’s ability to imagine, his desire became music. Now she plays this song for the world with her love fingers. Lucky you, lucky me, lucky us.

Take very good care of yourself this week. Why not sing a little…

Love,

Terri

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Rise Up by Andra Day

What a great set of words for these oncoming days.

Rise Up

 
You’re broken down and tired
Of living life on a merry go round
And you can’t find the fighter
But I see it in you so we gonna walk it out
And move mountains
We gonna walk it out
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
And I’ll rise up
High like the waves
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
When the silence isn’t quiet
And it feels like it’s getting hard to breathe
And I know you feel like dying
But I promise we’ll take the world to its feet
And move mountains
Bring it to its feet
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
All we need, all we need is hope
And for that we have each other
And for that we have each other
And we will rise
We will rise
We’ll rise, oh, oh
We’ll rise
I’ll rise up
Rise like the day
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I will rise a thousand times again
And we’ll rise up
High like the waves
We’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
We’ll rise up
And we’ll do it a thousand times again
For you
For you
For you
For you
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Cassandra Monique Batie / Jennifer Decilveo
Rise Up lyrics © BMG Rights Management

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Rippling Abs, Anyone?

Rippling Abs, Anyone?

During this strange time in history, I noticed y’all were tackling all sorts of interesting projects. I decided I needed one, too—something positive to remember the pandemic of 2020 by.
 
I decided to pay attention to something I had abandoned…
 
Nope, I’m not cleaning my garage. I am not organizing one single thing. I’m not planting a garden or cleaning up my yard.
 
Instead, I decided to take care of myself better. This, folks, has made all the difference for me.
 
With relatively little time and effort on my part, I feel so much better than I did a month ago.
 
On March 30, I got on the exercise bike and the yoga mat for the first time in a long time, and did 30 minutes each. I liked it so much that I decided to do it every day. But I fell short of that, and changed my commitment to every other day, which felt more manageable, reasonable, and doable.
 
I also get off the bike after every song, take a couple of sips of water, shake out my legs and arms for a few seconds, and get back on. This makes the bike project a reasonable proposition, too.
 
Daily walks of any length—by myself, or with my little guy, Jackson—are a fresh air bonus.
 
My recumbent exercise bike has pulleys to work my upper body while I pedal, which gets my heart rate up fast, and also helps my whole-body strength. It feels good to get up from writing, or doing a consulting session with a client, to do something physically challenging while listening to good music.
 
After only a month, I feel a sheet of muscles on the front of me I haven’t felt for a very, very long time. Goodness gracious. Who knew they were there. I’ll be posting rippling ab photos soon, I’m sure.
 
I have no idea what the scales have to say about my bike/yoga project—I don’t care. Paying attention to scales tends to send me sideways, and therefore, I’m ignoring them completely.
 
But—I LOVE the way I feel! Hang in there, everyone.
 

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