Posts Tagged ‘Surviving Cancer’
Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge. For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.A friend of ours from Georgia has offered to break down her 9 foot Oxygen chamber, bring it here, and set it up in our home for a week while her business is closed over the Holidays. We should have it sometime today. Apparently, in other countries, using this oxygen therapy for cancer treatment is common. We are looking forward to seeing if it helps Eric. His pain levels are increasing, and time is of the essence. Thank you for all your wonderful prayers. love, Terri
John of GodEric did have a remote session with John of God on Christmas morning. Some herbs were prescribed for him. Everyone gets the same herb (I forget what it’s called) but the herbs are imprinted or infused with whatever John of God is giving you energetically. A woman hand carried Eric’s herbs to the US from central Brazil (she was coming back anyway) and she is sending them overnight once she arrives in the US, which is supposed to be today and the herbs should arrive here hopefully on Monday. When you have a remote session with John of God, you don’t hear anything verbal, you’re not on the phone or Skype, you just get a message from the person who is personally in charge of presenting your photo to John of God. The message tells you whether you got herbs to take, or if remote surgery is scheduled in the future, or if he requests that you come to Brazil for treatment. We’re new at this, but that’s what we understand. love, Terri
He’s AwakeEric just woke up this morning. I asked him how he is doing and he mentioned how tired he is and keeps falling asleep. Our big white cat is contentedly curled up with him. I asked him what he’d like to tell you all and he said, “Sing. Tell them to make music.” So there you go! Sing around your house today. Sing in the car. Sing out! love, Terri Continue Reading
Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two or three about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge. For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.God Morning! I know that I just typed a typo and I’m leaving it just like that because it’s perfect. It is 10:30 and I’m the only one awake. The house is so quiet. I took advantage of the quiet and did some blessed yoga. Since Eric isn’t up yet, and I really don’t know what to say about him, I wanted to write a short note from the caregiver — that would be me…. :–) about care giving. It is clear to me — extra clear these days — how important to be easy about things with the person you’re taking care of, and letting everything flow the way it’s flowing. I’ve always known that, but now I know it in my bones. So I got up to have some time to myself. I really love the silence and calm while I look outside at the beauty of the day and do my best to stay in the present. This helps me not focus on the day ahead or what should be done to prepare for the day, or clean up the kitchen or plan a meal or whatever. The day will get busy soon enough. I don’t have to start on it in the quiet of the morning. While I did yoga I listened to this on YouTube: http://youtu.be/Y6WElxbbOGw. And while philosophies among humans differ tremendously, and who knows if the talk would be interesting or helpful to you, this 14 minute talk helped me center myself for the day. And that’s what’s important. It helped me, so I can help Eric all day. And that’s what matters — whatever helps me be more myself, more available, more calm, more loving. On the farm where I grew up, I used to get up in the morning and go be with the animals. Later in my life, I lived by the ocean for many years, and I would go for a walk and listen to the waves and feel the sand between my toes. So many things work. We just have to give ourselves permission to take the time to do them. My mantra today: The Universe is always helping me. Things are always turning out well for me. Love to all of you. I will let you know how Eric is when he is up and around. Terri Crosby Continue Reading
Every Monday, I plan to publish a past communication or two about Eric Russ and his Health Journey that originally appeared in Caring Bridge. For anyone with a “health opportunity” as my nurse friend calls it, I hope these posts are helpful.
12-26-13 for Eric RussIt’s evening, and Eric is resting comfortably at home. He says he feels better, but has no stamina to speak of. He is mostly in bed. He is on pain medication and something for digestive comfort as well. He believes he is getting better and, frankly, that is a mighty fine place to be with oneself. I have asked for a hospice evaluation for tomorrow afternoon, so a nurse is coming to talk with us. Through this process life has gotten both simple and complicated. Simple in terms of knowing what’s important. And complicated because there are many needs to be met for Eric. I keep putting one foot in front of the other, and I notice that my heart is opening, my understanding is deepening, and I see life in sweeter ways every day. Eric is being gentle, open and very loving. He appreciates all your warm thoughts and your prayers. It means a lot to him and he comments about that often. love, Terri Continue Reading
Iowa is beautiful, even in late winter, early spring. Granted, it’s cold, and the gray days so far are quite a contrast to my usual daily dose of bright California sun. From having grown up here, I know the Iowa gray can go on all too long this time of year when everyone is ready for spring.
I’m here with my youngest brother, who is 49 years old, and has cancer according to the medical people. It has been tough going on many levels. He is struggling to keep weight on, struggling to breathe, struggling to keep a positive attitude, struggling to accept his situation, struggling to walk, struggling to accept so much assistance, struggling to sleep, and most of all, to live.
His having cancer changed the landscape of our family quite suddenly. There we all were, going about our days and nights as if all we had to do was “the usual” and then we found out he was not well. We were having “lah-de-dah” conversations about the weather and “what did you do today?” which took a sharp and unexpected turn into conversations about how to live life fully, how to help someone else do the same, and what really matters in a day.
The mood — the frame of mind among family members on any given day here at the hospital — varies. Wondering if he will live at all is at the top of the list some days. On other days, all things considered, he looks pretty good. If you’re reading this, there is a good chance you know the “ebb and flow” I’m talking about.
I have a renewed appreciation for the nurses and doctors who do this service for my brother and for others every day in the oncology wing. Being here with him and his process is my lesson in letting go. How he is dealing with the cancer, his treatment choices – all of it is different than I would choose. That is what I think, but I don’t know, because I don’t have cancer and I have never walked in his shoes.
So here I am, hooking up his feeding tubes, learning how to disinfect the ports that carry the “nutrition” into his body, doing driving errands, transporting his children, or doing household chores. My brother’s wife is carrying on the family business so they have an income. The tasks I’m doing seem very small, and they are, but every little bit helps.
Now he is home and having chemotherapy on a weekly basis. He is on the least-invasive, most tolerable drug possible, because he has lost so much weight and getting him stronger is the number one goal now. Finding food he can face eating is quite a challenge. He’s hungry, but nothing seems to sound delicious. Truly good food, fully nutritious food, natural food — all of this seems to be a big turn off. How curious, since it seems that is what could possibly help him recover. Again, I don’t know. I have no idea.
Maybe the information I have about cancer can be helpful to someone else. I will post more soon. In the meantime, listen to your heart. Follow your heart. Imagine yourself looking back on your life. What will you be glad you did? Get to know your loved ones. Have honest conversations.